dicintai sebegitunya

If this has been so long that I have never been loved this much or I just forgot (as in my defence mechanism worked, idk, idc) that I'm loved, really loved.

Soothing. This describes the best for me current state. 

this love was kind of the one that I have never expected. The unexpected one. 

Yet the truest, the most soothing, the most loving, the sweetest, and the healthiest. 

All I could ask is just an infinite amount of time to spend with this person. 

tapi bukan hanya dicintai sebegitunya, pun aku mencintainya sebegitunya. 

bahkan sering kali rasa tidak percaya bahwa seseorang bisa mencintaiku sebegitunya itu muncul. 

Pernah ga sih nemu orang yang benar benar wakes you up dan membuat lo mau enhance everything. Kaya no more excuse or anything. I just want to strive and strive to be a better person for this person only, like you can against the whole galaxy just for this person and at no cost i could lose this person. Ever. 

Gila sih gue jatuh cinta parah. I kind of think actually it is really not cool to be in love this much, right? tapi apa daya beneran se jatuh cinta itu sama Co. I can't resist or deny or love him less. It is just it keeps growing... not much but it doesn't seem like it will stop. 

How happy and exciting it must have been to live the rest of my life with this man I undoubtedly adore. 

The C's story begins here, I guess. 

Am forever in debt to the universe for letting me living a life with you in it. 

Thank you for loving me that much, Co.

To our more hot chocolate and beer date, to our much more cit-is-grumpy-and-co-is-so-hyped-wander,  to-kalau-boleh-citra-ikut-bouldern-barengan, to make all of our dreams come true, to our ordinary happy and loving life,

I love you, Co.